we can live like jack and sally

Monday, June 28, 2004

first day of sch...

firstly, to vanessa: tt was so sweet of u !!! really nice...and thanks for it...:)

today was day one of block test....sigh...econs...pps bcame increasingly worse but still think i shldnt do too badly...
anyway today was 1st day of sch n yup...saw him..haha felt so happy...:)
ok gtg do gp alr...tmr gp paper...take care to all ya muggin out there...jiayou!! :)

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Friday, June 25, 2004

Revelation

i was just thinking awhile ago..abt something that has kinda been nagging at me.... i realised that since ive entered hc, ive lost the kind of confidence that ive always had...perhaps it's due to the fact that i no longer seem to excel at my wk...but cld the reason why i seem to be not excelling be due to the fact that ive no confidence in myself? to me, that seems to be the more probable reason... ive come to notice tt i think of myself as 'inferior' to the pple arnd me in sch...n y shld i do that? i hate tt feeling...sometimes they make me feel inferior...talking to me like im a goddamn idiot. but i noe im definitely not.. n im not superior, tts not wad im saying, but im on par....and nobody shld have the right to make me feel dumb or anything...the next time somebody does that, im goin to tell it as it is right in their face...cos no one has the right.

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Thursday, June 24, 2004

Collin Raye ~ Love Me~

I read a note my Grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said
Boy you might not understand, but a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
And I loved your Grandma so
We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first towm we come to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said:

Chorus:
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

Verse 2:
I read those words just hours
Before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of a church
Where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I never seen him cry
In all my fifteen years
But as he said those words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

Chorus:
If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But i'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

Breakdown:
And between now and then
Until I see you again
I'll be loving you . . .
Love, Me

This is such a sad and beautiful song...really love the lyrics...heard it on class 95...really sad..

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Wednesday, June 23, 2004

How to make a wangek

Ingredients:

5 parts pride

5 parts brilliance

3 parts empathy

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Serve with a slice of curiosity and a pinch of salt. Yum!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

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Monday, June 21, 2004

tired...

wow...realised that i havn't blogged for quite a long time...:P sigh so tired now...jus had econs consultation with my teacher....from 11 to 430...ohman can die ars...haha but quite happy...at least i cleared my doubts...sigh realli worried abt chem tho...i jus want to pass...sigh...
ive been eating alot these days!!! argh...the wkend after pre u sem..ate sakae and at newton circus...on the same nite...then the other day was kenny rogers...(macaroni n cheese rocks!!!) then yesterday...wah i think tt was a record... morn had prawn mee for breakfast...then 2 bazhang for lunch...then 1 bazhang and fried prawn mee for dinner...then cup noodles for supper!!!! oh man...i feel myself putting on the weight i had lost during pre u sem...
anyway..sigh so sad..cant go for the outing with my grp on this sat...too close to blk test n my mum definitely wun allow...sigh...miss them ya...they're all such sweet pple...anyway today chirag got his letter published in TODAY!! so pro haha... but havnt seen it yet...cant get a copy anywhere...
last wk alr...must jiayou for blk test!!! :)

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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

(Everything I Do) I Do It For You ~

Look into my eyes - you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

Look into my heart - you will find
There's nothin' there to hide
Take me as I am - take my life
I would give it all I would sacrifice
Don't tell me it's not worth fightin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

There's no love - like your love
And no other - could give more love
There's nowhere - unless you're there
All the time - all the way

Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
I can't help it there's nothin' I want more
I would fight for you - I'd lie for you
Walk the wire for you - Ya I'd die for you

Ya know it's true
Everything I do - I do it for you

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aLL oUt oF LoVe~

I'm lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too, but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile in my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know

Chorus:
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
Oh, what are you thinking of?
What are you thinking of?
I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I'm all out of love, what am I without you
I can't be too late to say that I was so wrong

I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from these long lonely nights
I'm reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can't hold on
There's no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I'll be gone, I'll be gone

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mug mug mug...

yay!! guess wad?? i started my mugging liaos...serious mugging...not as intense as 'o's of cos but yup...syill mugging...taking a break now.. sigh...realised tt i take quite alot of breaks...haha but that's how i work lars...:) realised tt last time when i study it's like everything is crystal clear, but now stuff is quite hazy and i just know it roughly...sigh...but at least im startin to understand...anyway going to do my revision more than once too...yup..to all my frens out there...mug hard!!! jiayou!! we can do it!! haha...:)
ohya jus talked to him on the fone..haha was asking him abt chem...;) and i was ok...haha...quite short phonecall lars...but oh well..
and my hp bill hit 50 bucks this mth!!! omg...my mum totally hit the roof man...all those who know her, you know how bad it got...damn... must cut down...but the thinh is, think it's goin to be the same for this mth too...shit...argh.. must control....
sigh...ok beta get back to wk...jiayou!! :)

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Monday, June 14, 2004

:)

sobs wahlau cant believe it!!! england bloody lost!! shit man... really tot they would win...argh...than my bro keep gloating...he was watching with his frens last nite and i actually got woken up by their shouting...yea tts how loud they were...man...shit!! and beckham missed a penalty kick..damn..but think they shld go thru to next round lars...they better...else it'd be damn disappointing man...
and i need to start on my work!! i need to shake off this lazy state that im in and get to wk...im gonna start tmr!!! jiayou geks!!! im gonna mug all the way...cos i noe end of the day, it'd be worth it and i wld feel damn happy n not so fucking useless...
Ps: cos this is my blog rite, i'd be cursing here more often than when im in sch, so dun get offended ya...
gonna start....gotta start...tmr will be the day i start mugging!! :)

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2 days n missin' it...

it's been 2 days since pre u sem and im still mising it...i guess im really lucky...to have such a fantastic grp n met such nice pple... wad makes it even more special was tt we met as strangers...then bcame such gd frens...sigh...gonna miss them.. was talking to them on msn last nite n realli missed all of 'em...they were making all those lame jokes(trust me they're really lame) n i actualli missed that... :) wanna meet up with them soon!!! must go beg my mum...sigh.. love ya all pple...:)

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Friday, June 11, 2004

you are lightcyan
#E0FFFF

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well.

Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working.

Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

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cont...

haha this is a continuation from the previous post...:) i miss the late nights that we spend together...the lame jokes that we tell...the games that we play..open numbers..truth or dare...guns n roses...squirt..bball...the 2 truths 1 lie game..and the quality game.. i miss the jokes made by u guys..u made me laugh so much.. i miss the pple..the sleeping durin panel discussions...n most of all..just u guys..u're all special in a different way..:) thank u for everything..

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Pre-U Sem rocks!!!

omg...ive realli nva had so much fun in my life...firstly, i miss all the pple in my grp alr..! i know u're not goin to see this but i just wanna say tt u made my 5 days at NUS fantastic, one of the best times in my life...realli realli gonna miss u guys...nva gonna forget u pple... thnx so much!!!!! :)

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Saturday, June 05, 2004

So happY!!!!!!!!!

feel so happy!!!!!!!! haha talked to him online for 1 hr plus... haha so xin4 fu2 now...:):):) yea as u can tell im realli happy...haha tmr's pre u sem...beta go slp...prob gona be smilin' in my slp....haha....:):)

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ThEre'S a rEaSon fOr eVerYthiNg...

jc life really wasn't what i expected it to be...i mean after orientation, i got the feelin' tt it was going to be realli fun...but now..life' just boring...its like super stagnant..veri mundane kinda life...veri repetitive too...sigh..sometimes get abit tired at sch..dunno y, but feel abit suppressed..like can't really say certain stuff cos will offend pple...must be veri aware of how pple feel...maybe im too aware n tts the problem..too sensitive i guess...tts wad shuting and teo used to tell me...i think too much..abt lotsa unnecessary stuff actuali..but there's always a bright side to it..n i just wanna say tt im glad tt ive yixin, simin n my twin...:) u pple make goin to sch worth it all..u pple were always there when im down n im so glad tt i met u!! :)
n then there's all the wk tts piling up..bleah...have started revision lars...but im going so slowly..why ars susan...? is it realli bcos we chiong too much during 'o's? maybe...but we must jiayou ok?? If we've done it b4...we can do it again..:)

~I LoVe U mOrE wiTh eVerY bReaTh tRuLy mAdLy dEEpLy dO...~

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Thursday, June 03, 2004

harry potter rocks!! :)

Yay...finally don't have to go back to school anymore... been going back to sch non-stop these days for an immunology wkshop..today's was quite fun...the lecturer actually bought this fantastic chocolate cake for everyone...and lotsa chocs too...haha but quite xian keep going back to sch...like no hols like tt...then tmr have to go for library cip briefing at boon keng mrt...another day gone...sigh..but after tt going kenny rogers with my sis!! haha havnt been there for ages...the macaroni n cheese...!! damn nice..then meet my mum for dinner after tt..:) prob gonna end up watchin' harry potter 3 on 3rd wk...no time ars...UNLESS...my mum agrees to let me watch this coming sat...:) hope so!! keeping my fingers crossed...gonna go to an 'ulu' cinema so can get tix haha...:)
Been very happy when i go on MSN these few days...haha...he got my email add and added me...haha feel so xin4 fu2..:):) been chatting quite alot..aometimes i get abit tired..like there was this period of time when we dint really talk..n i just felt quite upset tt how come one guy can affect me so much..but ive just got to speak to him again..or when he smiles at me and say hi...then i understd..

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