Friday, June 25, 2004
Revelation
i was just thinking awhile ago..abt something that has kinda been nagging at me.... i realised that since ive entered hc, ive lost the kind of confidence that ive always had...perhaps it's due to the fact that i no longer seem to excel at my wk...but cld the reason why i seem to be not excelling be due to the fact that ive no confidence in myself? to me, that seems to be the more probable reason... ive come to notice tt i think of myself as 'inferior' to the pple arnd me in sch...n y shld i do that? i hate tt feeling...sometimes they make me feel inferior...talking to me like im a goddamn idiot. but i noe im definitely not.. n im not superior, tts not wad im saying, but im on par....and nobody shld have the right to make me feel dumb or anything...the next time somebody does that, im goin to tell it as it is right in their face...cos no one has the right.
blaque stepped into the dark at 1:19 PM!
me
I stare up at the pure white ceiling
fans whirring softly
A deathly silence in the room
Fear grips me by the throat
As I watch Death slowly glide
My wrinkled hand grips the bedsheet
As I begin a silent litany of prayer
He glides past the sleeping child
in the opposite bed
past the lady gazing listlessly towards the window
I struggle to breathe
Strange wheezing noises
The demons within me rage
Wreaking havoc
As my feeble heart sputters and chokes
My eyes close in pain
Flying open
In shocked remembrance
To see
His dark hand reach for me
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