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Saturday, July 31, 2004

Carnival rocked!

haha today was HCJC Homecoming carnical...:) pretty fun...actuali more fun than expected lars..haha...n the rojak(my library stall) sold out like damn fast!!! sold out at 2+ when the carnival end at like 4+...haha quite happy...tot no one wld want to buy...but was pleasantly surprised...:> haha...yay!! was making rojak like crazy, haha then quite fun...n felt quite bad haha charging $3 for such a small serving haha...but its a carnival!!! things are meant to be expensive...:)haha...:)
reached sch super early...like at 645..think one of the 1st few there lors...haha..then went to class stall..wah think we made quite alot! thnx to peilin, jen and evelyn...our pros...haha...:) then i was like putting nail polish for the pple...haha and for this little gurl who was damn cute...:)
pple frm my pre u sem grp came!!! jinxing...ben..minghui..yau png.. haha quite happy to see them but cldnt bring them arnd...busy ars...then think they were walking with their frens...:) met sonya!!!!!!! haha...man i miss tt gurl...haha we went pple watching n saw quite alot of interesting pple...:) but it was realli cool meeting up with her...brings back memories....:)
carnival was a SUCCESS!!!!!!! :>

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Wednesday, July 28, 2004

DOUBLE CHAMPS!!! man!! stnicks rocks!!! :):):)
man i miss tt sch..

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Tuesday, July 27, 2004

today was a terrible day...got food poisoning i think...then stomach hurt like MAD!! argh...at 1st tot it was gastric...haha then quite funny...kevin n ks kept coming up with weird 'remedies'...if u can call them tt...eat chalk cos its carbonate n wld react with the acid to give off CO2...:) haha or to drink NaOH to neutralise the acid...haha...ohman...then today mdm yeo brandished her wooden ruler around again...then the guys took out plastic rulers and started imitatin her...quite a hilarious sight...:)
tmr's cheering!!! damn lookin forward to it...stnicks is like double champ! so damn proud of them...:) wanna go crash their contingent...:) haha...gonna be damn fun..:) hope they are double champs again this yr!! :)

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Saturday, July 24, 2004

Library Investiture '04 :)

haha yay!!!!! finally it's over!! all our effort has paid off haha... firstly like to thank my exco..u pple ROCK!! haha...was realli quite fantastic today...altho it wasnt running tt smoothly...haha we were still dciding how we shld play the game when everyone was stoning outside...n how we had only 1 knife contributed by peilin to cut the 6 pizzas...haha...but in the end everything went alright...n we had lotsa fun..:) esp liked the msg-writing...veri sweet!! everyone must go see...it's at the library noticeboard haha...:) damn cool...then after tt took alot of pics n desmond kept doing his disappearing act whenever we had to take the pics...haha...got a purse frm boonkian for gift-xchange..haha gave him a soft toy..:) yay! happy!!! haha...one down...one more to go...now the carnival...haha but dun care...im goin to rest this wkend man...:):)

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Thursday, July 22, 2004

he talked to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :):):)

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hahaha... went swimming today...almost died laughing man..haha...havnt swam in like 6 yrs?? haha...then felt so weird in the suit n actually swimming!!! haha quite funny cos i had to keep to the side of the pool so in case of anything i just grab it, so we were supposed to swim one breadth whereby u jus float n start swimming to the other side...haha n i cldnt hold my breath for veri long so i started grabbing the side a few times...then all the time, mr Lee was like, 'no! don't grab the side! continue!' haha... then after tt we were supposed to freestyle to n fro..so my freestyle is like screwed, cos i cant cum up n breathe, so i must chiong all the way, n of cos i cant make it lars!! haha...so halfway i grabbed the side n came up for air..then mr Lee went again,' continue! dun be scared! it's ok!' haha...n i was so tempted to tell him tt i cldnt breathe!!! haha...quite a funny experience...haha but realised i am abit scared of water...so see how things go...dunno if i'll pon the next one...:) n wows...lee kai n L. simin are damn pro swimmers...they swim freestyle like so effortlessly liddat...haha..but then of cos lars...one tchs water polo team...the other nygh swimming team...wah...super pro...:)
then after tt went tchs to eat dory fish...so nice!!! tchs has realli nice food man...dunno y they sometimes cum over to HC canteen for wad...food there sux...it's like the kind whereby ure veri hungry, then when u reach the canteen...n u get assaulted by all the smells...n u completely lose ur appetite...haha...:P

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Wednesday, July 21, 2004

omg...library investiture is really giving me a huge headache...the carnival also...argh!! anyway feel tt i guess diff pple got diff leadership styles..sometimes feel abit weird, cos she really can lead quite well...i dunno wad the others think, but i hope im doin a gd enuf job..its rather irritatin sometimes tho..
feel tt sometimes life is unfair..really unfair...but nth i can do...except wk harder
shld i msg him?
i realli dunno...

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Sexy, always ready to give and receive. Very creative, adventurous, ambitious and passionate. You have a cold exterior but are warm on the inside. Not afraid to take chances. Will not settle for anything average in life. The Cakes Quiz

haha...dunno how much of tt is true...:)

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Saturday, July 17, 2004

went njc today...for the talk on marriage on courtship... not very interesting...only reason i went was cos my PW is on marriage... we were havin this discussion session n i realised tt for me...i wld court with marriage in mind...reali dun see the point in courting jus for fun...of cos if things dun wk out tts another case, but realli wun ever get into a relationship jus for the fun of it... hmz...
still feelin not so fantastic abt things...but if one day i really feel numb n cant feel anything no more...wld i be happy? i dun think so...cos tt wld really mean the end of things...n a part of me doesnt want it to end yet...

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Friday, July 16, 2004

haha jus ate sushi!! so gd...:) feel so full now...went to the bank jus now to apply for an atm card...hm went with yixin..then met kevin there...was in the library n we saw Z haha...he's really hot man...:P made eye contact!! haha...eye candy...yea pple...HC has eye candy...as few as there may be...:) he's realli charismatic haha...
were doing PW.. then they decided to come to my house on sunday... shld be quite pductive n fun this session...:)
hais...today got ignored again...n this time i think he shld have seen me...but again he dint say hi...he din smile, actually he dint even look at me lars...he used to be able to make me smile n feel veri happy in the past...but now he jus upsets me n makes me feel sad..i feel like givin up..but pple tell me to give it another chance...actualli even if i want to give up it's not possible... i wun be able to do it...i really dunno wads wrong anymore..

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Thursday, July 15, 2004

feelin' rather exhausted mentally..so many things on my mind... feelin' confused..studies..cca...stuff...sigh..
sometimes u feel that when i look bac in a few yr's time, i'd regret not havin more fun...like goin out more..havin more fun with my frens...cos i gotta obey my parents...maybe i obey too much ya? sumwhere along sec 4 i developed a conscience...ya..but i noe when i look bac i wun regret my academic aspects...well i dun intend to regret it...cos im goin to do well...ive the confidence!! tts the way to succeed..by havin the right attitude..1/2 the battle's won..:)
worried abt my studies...but worryin wun solve a thing...i gotta get off my butt n work!
feelin kinda numb too...abt him..i dunno wad to feel anymore... i dun understd y he ignores me these days...nva says hi...or smiles..or even seem to see me..when we're online...n my nick obviously suggests that sth is wrong...he doesn't even ask...mayb tts too much to ask for...but i had hoped...i dunno..tirin'...
i miss susan*baoru*goh*teo*shuting*sonya*4C*sngs*my life

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Wednesday, July 14, 2004

~ U only get one shot in life, so give it ur best shot. It'll be worth it.~

~Live life...Don't let life live you.~

~Do the things you love~

~There's always someone worse off...n someone better than u~

~Strive~

~Face ur challenges in the eye.~

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Tuesday, July 13, 2004

hey van!! thnx alot for ur comment! meant alot...yea...i must be strong..!cos tts the way u noe me ya? :) n i'll face the probs head-on! :)
today was the 1st day of my counter duty in the library...haha..n on the very 1st bk tt i borrowed for this gurl, forgot to desensitise the bk n when she went out the alarm jus rang like nobody's business! so embarrassing...haha...:P managed to accomplish sum hw during then, so quite happy...realised tt the library is really a conducive place for studyin...shall go there more...:)

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ohman...ive a horrible headache...been coming n goin the whole day since econs n it has come bac with a vengeance now...ow..every movemt hurts...realli cldnt move while i was walking hm...stopped suddenly like dunno how many times...ow..
but today quite hyperactive actuali...haha said alot of lame things...but physically sian haha...every monday i like bcum madwoman like tt haha...:)
finally said hi to me today!!!!!!! n twice!! :) haha...was quite happy...but didnt talk lars...now im currently on the waiting mode...ie. i dun wanna msg him 1st anymore...he can do it...im tired...was talkin to my twin ytd n she told me sth tt i think is reali true n put things in a different perspective.. i shld get a guy who wld cherish me n tt the one tt matters wun make me cry (in this case, so upset) ya...but im still confused right now...so i'll see how things go..
headache...
ohya did microscopy today n the cells looked so pretty!!! haha...veri nice....but think i got abit cross-eyed frm it haha...n it amplified my headache...haha...
gonna get more pple to buy carnival tix frm me!!! ok....gtg haf dinner..then it's wk time...:) jiayou!!

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Sunday, July 11, 2004

Why go online if u put ur profile as away? im so confused n tired..
Life fucking sucks. suddenly ive got this whole onslaught of problems..and sometimes i jus dun wanna deal with them.. but i got to..cos i have to..there's no other way..there's no running away.

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Saturday, July 10, 2004

went boon keng MRT station there to do CIP today...was reeally irritated cos i actually got lost n ive been there TWICE...argh...then went in n saw no one that i knew there...double argh...but quickly made frens lars...nice pple..:) haha...then was beginning to think tt i'd been wasting my time cos absolutely nobody wanted to do the survey...then in the last hr we went to another blk n man...was i happy that they were much happier...well...this still isnt goin to stop me frm shakin my head vigorously n closing the door when salesmen come knocking on MY door...:)
managed to sell one ticket to benjamin! for carnival lars...must ask the others if they wanna cum...treat it as a mini grp 12 gathering haha...n any of u out there(ie. susan, shuting, teo, goh,baoru, van,etc..) wanna cum pls leave a msg or msg me ok!!! must cum!! havnt seen all of ya for so long..:) take this tym to catch up haha....hopin it'l be fun..but dun xpect too much ok? haha...after all...dun think its goin to be as fun as the sngs one...n ours wasnt ALL that fun either haha..:)
haha n i havnt collected my cert yet!!! omg...then embarrassed myself during bio lect ytd...yiwen who sat one row bhind me told me tt if we dun collect soon, they're goin to send it bac to MOE...n i went like, 'huh??!' super loudly...ohman...my class started laffing at my shocked face haha...:)
hm there's really quite alot to do for library...but still ok...coping well...all the irritating paperwk done liaos...now left investiture n carnival to do...sellin rojak...sigh..hope turns out well n got business man..the j2 exco's idea...sigh..
find myself more confident now...shldnt feel dumb if i dun understd sth...wad matters is i ask..n im going to really buck up n jiayou..! i know i CAN do it...:):)

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Wednesday, July 07, 2004

It's really so hard..since i've liked him, this is the one time ive felt this depressed..and it's been goin on for a few days..i don't know what to do... found myself waiting for him to come to sch today..jus sittin' there,seeing if he had reached.. and when he had, the first thing i did was to duck my head n pretend i hadnt seen him.. there was nothing i could do..he doesnt seem to haf forgotten her..n once again i jus wish i hadnt asked him wads wrong..n to forget all that he said..

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Monday, July 05, 2004

ending my day on a sad note..wish i hadn't gone online and heard what he said..

+tAkE bAc wAd u sAiD...i dUn wAnnA hEAr nO moRe+

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Sunday, July 04, 2004

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i miss everyone
miss sonya
miss jo goh
miss jo teo
miss shuting
miss susan
miss baoru
miss all the heart to heart talks
miss the laughter
miss the smiles
miss the times we had
miss the songs susan n shuting always sing
miss the togetherness
miss the way u all wld stay in class during recess
miss havin goh gush with me over guys
miss going home with teo
miss talkin to susan on the phone
miss sittin' next to baoru n readin books under the table
miss going to recess with sonya
miss havin frens who dun judge
miss frens im comfortable with
miss all the tears we shared
miss all the fun we had
miss the 16th birthday u pple did for me
miss talking to all of u
miss seeing u pple everyday in class, in the corridors
miss the simpleness of life in sec sch
miss the times we slacked during assembly
miss the times we hecked wang jian
miss the times when we asked ms lim for tips during bio tests
miss the familiarity of st nicks
miss my frens
miss these very special pple i'd treasure my entire life
miss these pple whom i know i'd never forget
miss the memories
missin' u
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heys...haha yay finally watched harry potter yesterday...n omg...its fantastic..really nice!!! dint regret watchin' it..:) its realli different frm the 1st two...this one is darker...as in the whole cinematography n style is so different...haha normally i dun go analysing lightings n cinematography n all that crap..haha but this one was too obvious a diff to overlook..fantastique show!! :) went to watch with yixin then we went to shop abt...haha apparently i had a lot of self-control when it comes to buying things and she thinks she has none...haha im too used to window shopping n not buying anything at whim..prob cos i always go out with my mum and she's got to approve b4 i buy anything haha...:)
came bac frm the movie...ate steamboat for dinner..yum..haha then sonya called at 12 and we talked till like one +... miss her...talked to her abt alot of stuff tts been happening...if ure reading this sonya, jus wana say thnx, for being always there ya? and it really helps knowing that there's someone there whom i know i can tell my thoughts to...:) u'll always be my bestest friend..:)

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Saturday, July 03, 2004

mE..

The Inner You: Your Real Motivation
Proud and intensely individual, you really want to stand out, to be the very best you can be, and to be recognized and appreciated for your unique contributions. Doing something well and being respected for it is extremely important to you, and you cannot tolerate being in the background, taking orders from others, or being "just one of the team". You must put your personal stamp on whatever you do, and direct your own course in life. You need to have a place where you can shine, express yourself creatively, and be the one in charge.

Mental Interests and Abilities
You are highly interested in inner, subjective, and personal issues, and your thinking is based more on feelings, intuition, personal experiences, and prejudices rather than reason or logic. Intellectual abilities and accomplishments without heart or soul mean little to you. You are empathic and would be an excellent counselor, for you are a sensitive listener and deeply interested in a person's feelings and inner life. In addition to psychology, you are drawn to education, art, poetry, music, or mythology. You are not especially confident about speaking in public, but will open up and share your thoughts in small, intimate groups. You enjoy keeping a diary or personal journal and reading the chronicles of others' lives and personal development.

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Friday, July 02, 2004

yay!!

midyrs are finally over!!!! yay...haha...maths confirm goner alr...haha but let's not talk abt upsetting stuff...haha guess wad was the 1st thing i did after midyrs?? :) went to toa payoh library to get bks...haha...in need of romance bks...havnt read for so long!!!! sum of u pple prob wun understd me haha but i noe sum wld..:)
to teo: ya i relly felt that way during the past 6 mths....but im hoping things will change...n actually i can feel them changing...cos ive got my confidence bac...
u noe actually i think pre u sem did alot of good for me...made me feel really confident n i now know tt i can handle pple...as in like even strangers ya?? in the past i'd have been pretty shy n wun open up...but pre u sem really helped n it's an experience i'd nva forget...to all gp 12 pple...u ROCK!!!!! :) miss all of ya so much....
happy tt jo goh got a blog!! now gona be easier to keep in touch..:)
miss all of u!!!!!!:)

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