we can live like jack and sally

Sunday, October 31, 2004

went to HC's first halloween night today....hmm wasnt very fun...cos we reached there, then stoned until 8 then we went to watch the exorcist...wahlau shldnt have watched lars...almost cried n walk out halfway lors..ahhh..damn...the audi was so noisy...why can't pple ever jus shut up n enjoy the show...sigh..ohwell by the time we went home it was like damn late...reached hm at 11+...so sleepy liaos...:) later my pw grp coming to my house to chiong pw...haha...:) but everyone is late...:)

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Friday, October 29, 2004

so fun today!!!~ haha...went to j8 bishan today...;) ate SO MUCH stuff...omg im damn full now lars...let's see...went with ks and yixin...then first we ate yakitori...then old chang kee currypuff...then dumpling noodle at foodcourt...walked about...bought breadtalk...went to secret recipes...ate choc banana cake which was SO GOOD....ahhhhhh....total bliss haha...damn nice!! :):) so fun....wanna go again!! haha..

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Wednesday, October 27, 2004

wah really damn sian lars....so late alr n i havnt even done like my HW!!! n there's so much...damndamndamn...well anyway..
was in a friggin' bad mood today...in the morn...started hating the sch and everything...one of those days when everything, however small n minor, manages to piss u off...majorly...shld have seen my face...but well, not the first time it has happened...i mean in HC...last times stnicks oso liddat ars...happened many times...sigh...argh things damn screwed now...lotsa things on my mind...but they're all really petty n find tt i dun really wanna voice them out...damn fuckin screwed...my class can be qt screwed up sometimes...but then again, it could jus be plain ol' screwed up me talkin crap

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Tuesday, October 26, 2004

haha had my first op dry run today...:) went quite well, jus tt we need to work on our coordination...n i must stop being so nervous... haha ya but it was alright...sigh so many things to accomplish by thurs!!!!!!!!
1.chem spa hw
2.bio tut
3.cca orientation proposal
4.pw
BLEAH...

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Saturday, October 23, 2004

u know wad? i think im a really lucky girl...ive frens who care really alot abt me...i wanna say a BIG THANK U!!!~ i cant put in words how much i appreciate u pple...be it small probs...or big ones...or when i feel sad n upset...u pple are always there...to lend a ear...a shoulder...to offer me words of encouragement n advice...u make my life tt much better...wun know wad to do without u...thanks for bein here for me..=)

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Friday, October 22, 2004

Today was Open House!!! it was actually quite fun..had lotsa fun bringing them round and the exco jus sitting arnd n crackin jokes n making fun of poor desmond's tchs...haha...THEN, Miss Heng had to appear...she seriously pissed me off today...argh dunno wads her friggin' prob...she actually managed to scold me twice today...once b4 the entire open hs started n once again after everything ended...wtf?! i dunno wads her prob...n the stuff tt she pointed...are stuff tt cant be helped, n her demands are very stupid...wanting me to go to mrs samuel n actually tellin her tt we have to bind the newsletter and not staple it..? she wants me to override her decision?? and after spending so much time tellin me tt she cant go up to mrs samuel, she still goes up to her n mrs samuel had to call peilin...but at least she understood, cos frankly, its not her fault lars...wahlau cant stand her...its like the exco knew i kept getting scolded ;lars...but on reflection...next time when i get scolded, i think i shldnt tell the exco, maybe not show my irritation n complain, i mean they're really supportive of me...n im really glad ive such a exco...thanks everyone for the hard work today!!! :)i dunno, cos felt today tt i was turning them against her or sth...but seriously i felt qt wronged today...n ive always had a short fuse regarding such things...ahhh miss stnicks lib!!! so much more fun...here always feel the pressure to perform..n nva do i feel up to her standard, she(heng) keeps tellin me we have to maintain standards but wth lars...was qt angry tt she didnt even praise or offer any kind words or acknowledgement of what the exco did today...and i dun understd why somepple disappeared so fast...esp those who didn't even have the decency to tell me...sorry if im harsh, but im fine with u goin off early, but pls tell me? it doesnt help, seriously, jus disappearing...i mean u shld know tt help will be needed for cleaning up...or tt there'll be a debrief, i mean everyone wants to go...but...aiya i dunno lars...frig
well on to happier stuff after ive ranted everything tt i feel, feel so much better...todays open hs was really fun! saw lotsa stnicks girls...ALOT...saw xueying, joycelyn...jasmine n elsa! really hope they will be able to get into HC...wld be nice to see them arnd...then the MAD dancers seriously rocked...think lisa is damn pretty lars...ohya n for the hiphop dance...omg, tt guy, think his name is zhiwen? he danced really well lars...man it really rocked! the goody bag was also very nice..samuel kop one for me...damn nice lars the bag...then saw him arnd alot today!! i dunno if it'll eva fade, but all i know is tt he really makes me smile..n seeing him really made my day tt much better...
then the council dance was very nice! they picked a really nice song lars...but qt sad it started raining, cos it started leakin everywhere haha...
open hs was a success!!! wah so tired now...spent 9hrs in sch...ahhhh...ok goin to slp liaos..

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Wednesday, October 20, 2004

havnt blogged for awhile...got bac my final grades today...haha really happy with my econs!! haha ok so they're not fantastic but ive nvaa been so relieved in my life b4 ya noe?? hmm jus hope i wun be forced to drop any subjects..
PW really getting on everyone's nerves...sigh...really hate it man...OP sucks lars...ahhh..
pple pissing me off...sigh been in bad mood these days...very easily irritable...
open hs coming soon!! tmr's prep for it...sigh...hope it'll be fun...!

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Sunday, October 17, 2004

even as i despaired of everything..i realised that there were still many things out there that i should be happy abt...cos im not alone...there are many pple who care abt me...thanks to wanyi...yixin...lisa...simin...may..mingyong..tiong...ks...goh..peilin... shufang..thank u pple! :) u helped me get thru this...:) thanks alot again....

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Friday, October 15, 2004

today i wondered, will i ever be happy again? today...my world came crashing down on me..and as i scream in my heart for it all to end...no one hears my cries..

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Tuesday, October 12, 2004

saw him in the canteen today!!! got a shock when i saw him strollin into sch..haha cos totally wasnt expecting to see him...:) did a huge double take...haha then i talked to him!!! was so happy!!!! cos this is our first face-to-face conversation since god-knows-when...:) haha always jus hi bye kind...or talk abit online...hahahaha...happy!!!!!!!!! :)

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Monday, October 11, 2004

baoru n may!! thnx for ur tags...:) felt much better after reading them...n thinking bac...yea maybe i shldnt be too critical..have made many gd frens this yr..yea n i met up with may!!! haha...made many frens tt really care for me n are really fun too...maybe i shldnt keep pedallin backwards, if ya get wad i mean...maybe i shld move on...but tt doesnt mean tt im gonna forget u pple...cos i nva will...n i cant...with u guys i found a kind of familiarity tt i'll nva find anywhere else...:) miss u...n when i do backpedal nn reminisce again, dun blame me...i cant help it...:)

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Sunday, October 10, 2004

it has been one long year and i ask myself wad have i gained, wad have i accomplished...n it seems like nth substantial, nth much..i feel as if the whole year has been a waste..hu cares whether everyone likes u anot? hu cares abt u? why try so hard? so wad if i have lotsa fun now? there's always time to play..havnt i learnt that play tt comes after hard wk is the best? im glad ive studied hard for promos, i noe it mite not ne TT hard, as hard as i studied for o's, but i noe i put in the effort, i dun regret the times i spent poring over my chem notes, or my chem notes, tho i wun do spectacularly for chem..i dun regret it, thank u to all those hu gave me the strength n encouraged me..i noe wads best for me n i'll listen only to myself..why bother abt so many other stuff now?? why bother so much abt wad other pple think? i miss goh, i miss teo, i miss sonya, i miss susan, i miss baoru, i miss shuting, i miss eileen...u were always there for me..n i cant thank u enough..i noe tt no matter how much it might seem like we're drifting apart, or that we dun talk to each other tt much anymore, or that we dun see each other tt much anymore, u'll always have a place, a very special place in my heart, tt no one can possibly replace..u guys are my best frens, n im so glad i know u pple...im the lucky one..n when i feel that there is no one who understands me truly, or that who knows the real me, i noe tts not true, for ive all of u, n i noe u'll always be there for me, no matter wad.. know that regardless of anything, i'll always be by ur side, ur best fren foreva.. i miss u..

blaque stepped into the dark at 8:07 PM!

it has been one long year and i ask myself wad have i gained, wad have i accomplished...n it seems like nth substantial, nth much..i feel as if the whole year has been a waste..hu cares whether everyone likes u anot? hu cares abt u? why try so hard? so wad if i have lotsa fun now? there's always time to play..havnt i learnt that play tt comes after hard wk is the best? im glad ive studied hard for promos, i noe it mite not ne TT hard, as hard as i studied for o's, but i noe i put in the effort, i dun regret the times i spent poring over my chem notes, or my chem notes, tho i wun do spectacularly for chem..i dun regret it, thank u to all those hu gave me the strebgth n encouraged me..i noe wads best for me n i'll listen only to myself..why bother abt so many other stuff now?? why bother so much abt wad other pple think? i miss goh, i miss teo, i miss sonya, i miss susan, i miss baoru, i miss shuting, i miss eileen...u were always there for me..n i cant thank u enough..i noe tt no matter how much it might seem like we're drifting apart, or that we dun talk to each other tt much anymore, or that we dun see each other tt much anymore, u'll always have a place, a very special place in my heart, tt no one can possibly replace..u guys are my best frens, n im so glad i kknow u pple...im the lucky one..n when i feel that there is no one who understands me truly, or that who knows the real me, i noe tts not true, for ive all of u, n i noe u'll always be there for me, no matter wad.. know that regardless of anything, i'll always be by ur side, ur best fren foreva.. i miss u..

blaque stepped into the dark at 8:07 PM!

Saturday, October 09, 2004

omg tt was so damn cool lars!!!!! ahh! was watching starsports on scv and they were replayin sum of england's games...was playing the world cup qualifier match n ohman it was fantastic...they were like down 2-1 and they were goin to get knocked out alr....beckham was like seriously running everywhere....then during stoppage time, literally on the last min, he drilled in a beautiful free kick!!! n they were into the world cup! he literally sent them in man...omg damn cool!!!!!!!!!!! he rocks...still think he's one of the best players ever...his crosses, his freekicks, his corners....his crosses always land right on target...cool..way cool..:)

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Friday, October 08, 2004

promos finally over!!!! haha acty was over ytd lars...:) went to watch vanity fair at lido after tt....:)haha very gd show!! cried at quite alot of scenes...haha one line which i tot was very sweet...'if you should wake up tmr and find me dead, know that u're a woman that has been truly loved....' sweet...sigh..met quite alot of stnicks pple at lido...aileen...annabel..zhiying..hahha..
then went to get yakitori...then drop by lib...then went hm n slept man...tired..gonna slack all the way..
confused
dun wanna care no more
all u do is..
u do not a thing
tts why it hurts

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Saturday, October 02, 2004

yay! went to bishan after a day of mugging in mac's today...wah cldnt take it man...wanted to read sth else other than econs...hmm....yakitori rocks!! haha...:) well anyway while i was on the bus home...was reading all my msgs in my fone...(which is alot)..:P then was jus thinking abt pre u sem...realli miss it..had so much fun!! n i made frens i wldnt have known otherwise...thank u pple for making tt 5 days so special for me...will nva forget it...will always rmb the games we played to get to know each other beta...the talks we had...the seminars we had tgt...the day at sentosa...our stayin up on the last night n sneaking bac to the rooms...all the lame jokes...the pictures...we were so different yet we bonded so well tgt n became such gd frens...miss u guys!!! :) hope we meet up soon......:)

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