Friday, January 21, 2005
u're special
talking to may online now...n kinda realise that some things are jus not meant to be...n there's no point clinging to it n making myself miserable...since the other person doesnt even know...there's two choices i can make now...1. to tell him and 2. to forget him...do i have the courage to? am I sure enough of my feelings todo it? im shrouded in a cloud of confusion but when ive told him how i feel, i dunoo what will happen? do i realli realli like him so much? are my feelings real enough? i know he'll always be special to me...i can't imagine anyone taking over his place now..i can't imagine anyone causing me so much happiness with a smile or a hello...or so much misery either...i guess i shld stop...i do feel myself thinking less n less of him each day...i will try to forget him...it's the only way..
To: sonya tings baoru goh teo susan+ I am so happy to know all of you...but u know that...u guys are forever in my heart..u guys are special, the times we spent together are the happiest in my life..
meeting sonya at her class for recess
painting sec 4 classroom
turning arnd to talk to baoru eileen tings susan
susan n shuting singing
reading under the table
talkin to goh abt tennis
gushing abt beckham
teo n her food
her aversion to dairy pdts
her tai-tai look at grad
ignoring wang jian tgt
exchanging mags to read
listening to each others probs
comforting each other
supporting each other
taking the 25 with teo
sonya refusing to take 269 with me
always wanna take 76
being one of the 1st few to arrive in sch
n slowly seeing all of u stream in
unbuttoning my collar
eating in class
studying together
joking n laughing during prac lock-ups
waiting for sonya to walk home
eating tgt at mac's
tau huay shop
'shopping' with teo goh tings baoru at cheers
7-eleven
bkshop
econs minimart
tings n her dove dark choc
werther's choc
teo n her sarcastic jokes
goh n her mango obsession
susan n her laugh
sonya n her toy car
we always knew each other would be there
jus waiting in the wings
a familiarity that can nva be found anywhere else
I love u all
U'll always have a special place in my heart
blaque stepped into the dark at 11:15 PM!
me
I stare up at the pure white ceiling
fans whirring softly
A deathly silence in the room
Fear grips me by the throat
As I watch Death slowly glide
My wrinkled hand grips the bedsheet
As I begin a silent litany of prayer
He glides past the sleeping child
in the opposite bed
past the lady gazing listlessly towards the window
I struggle to breathe
Strange wheezing noises
The demons within me rage
Wreaking havoc
As my feeble heart sputters and chokes
My eyes close in pain
Flying open
In shocked remembrance
To see
His dark hand reach for me
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