we can live like jack and sally

Thursday, March 31, 2005

am reading nicholas sparks's 'The Notebook' now...another sad story...i guess there's only so few people on earth who wld find their true love in this lifetime.. i wonder what it takes? to find that someone who u know loves u more than anything else, such that life without u wld seem empty..heard quite a few nice songs today..
mr big: 'to be with u'
elton john" 'sacrifice'
bryan adams: 'everything i do-i do it for u'
tim mcgraw:'live like u were dying'
colin raye: 'love, me'
bon jovi:'always'
all these sad songs...sigh...

sometimes things jus nva turn out the way u want them to be. sometimes i think to myself, wad's wrong? but as i search for the ans, i know that i jus have to work harder at realising it.

don't know why i suddenly thought of this...but i jus wonder how exactly does my life look like from another person's point of view? or how am i like as a person? or what have i done that has made a difference to pple.. when i grow old, will there be things that i regret doing? or not doing? i think regret's the worst poison..it slowly eats away at u till u waste away...i don't ever want to regret anything,but looking at things now, there are alr things that i wish i cld change...like the tim mcgraw song, 'to love deeper, to speak sweeter'...i guess the one thing that i really want to change, ive been thinking abt it so long, but finally, i shall really do sth abt it.

time's flyin by n in a few years' time, the decisions n worries that il be plagued with will be so different from the ones that are on my mind now..guess growing up's kinda scary ya? but it's jus all a part of life...uve jus gotta make the most outta it..

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Monday, March 28, 2005

yay!!!!!!!!!! block test's finally over!!!! hahahahahahhahha yesh....can finally rest n slack...=) let's see...first thing i did after bio pp...went out with simin...decided to go mall-hopping arnd the hougang area...haha then met vanessa n irene on the bus, so we went hougang mall tgt to eat lunch at the thai restaurant...not bad!! n the food qt cheap...=) yup then walked awhile abit..then both irene n vanessa left, so me n simin decided to go compasspt...haha...then walked until we both qt tired....sat down n bought some stuff to eat n were jus talking...ahhaha n i was trying to guess her bro's name, realised that her bro's name can acty bcum qt interestg!! haha had a gd laugh over tt...then we went to library where i was very torn cos i cldnt borrow too many bks ahhhhhh hate it when tt happens...but i got 4!! haha so happy...came hm, started reading for like 3 hrs non stop, jus finished one bk...=D sigh really love the feeling of jus losing urself in the bk...for me, i'd rather stay at hm with a gd bk then go out...seriously...sometimes goin out, hmmm can get abit sian lars i guess...i'd rather read anytime...=) was watching abit of star wars jus now...hmmmmm my impressn of it wasnt like tt...haha it acty looks qt comical...hmmm then realised that darth vader was anakin !!! had kinda forgotten tt...haha think he's cool, with the black mask n weird breathing sound ahha...=) lure of the dark side...nva did watch the full thing, so dun understd much...ohhwell...got desperate hswives later! gonna watch...ohh n simin coming over tmr!!haha...:) i love the feeling of liberation frm papers!!!!!!! haha..

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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

ahhhhh jus typed a super long entry n all gone...bleahhh
basically...been awol cos exams lars...march hols burnt studying...then now break which is today only, today last pp for this wk ended...next pp is next mon...which is bio...so today rest..tmr chiong again sigh...cant wait for mon!!!! whee!!~

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hello!!!!!! haha been AWOL for so long..whole march days was basically spent mugging...man mugmugmug like siao...really every single day lars....sigh so tiring...mon was GP, tues maths n econs, today chem...then tmr no paper until mon! which is bio...sigh...then tues hols again...haha acty not bad lars...sigh now hafta mug bio throughout this 'hols'...yupyup at least well got extra time, i need it lars...bio damn lot to cover...but giving myself a break today!! haha...=) jus gonna take it easy...tmr then chiong again..wahh looking bac, think my most confident pp is GP..haha the others...sigh..maths errr nvm, keeping my fingers crossed...econs...argh...today's chem...gonecase...came out everyone was like 'freak!!! why so hard!!!?' sigh...haha was qt in the dumps haha then i heard sth damn funny...me, lisa n simin were jus there stoning, then we overheard ang weiwen's conversatn which went sth liddat...haha..:' i didnt do mcq, didnt do free response qns...so i think i shld be able to still get 70/120..' HAHAHAHHAHA omg was laughing like mad...he damn optimistic lars, still believe sectn b can get full marks...ahha funny guy..=) the after that he was like asking his fren, 'ehh the ans gor this qn shld be like that right, i assumed it's a trick qn.' ahha ohhman...:D shall rest today..cant wait for monday to end!!! whee!!!~

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Sunday, March 13, 2005

7 hrs @ NUS!!!! madness..

jus cleared my hotmail acct...got like 112 junk mail...damn useless...everyday log in jus todelete mail n free up sapce for more new mail..sigh...went for NUS open hs..! saw like everyone there...let's see...i saw susan!!!! haha so so cool to see u again cos havnt seen u in such a long time...n i saw ahem, with u...haha dun think i didnt...;p well it was gd seeing u...=) then saw aileen stj..haha she looks so cute lars...still the same...=) zhiying..various stnicks pple n even more HC pple...whoas...well it wasnt exactly VERY informative but i stayed frm 11am to 6pm there...yea i know 7 hrs...madness...then went IT show at suntec...reached there at 7...so walk walk then so many pple i alr damn tired alr...then ate dinner, by the time reach hm, horrors!!!!!! it was alr 11+pm...damn..got a shock when i saw the time lars....sigh..wasted one day..
tmr meeting siva for econs...then studyin in sch...shld really not be online now...but ohwell i need a break...think tonite no need slp...shall eat to keep myself awake haha...
many things happening these days...but i jus gotta learn to keep them outta my mind these days...i know she means well when she says those things to me n i shldnt keep flaring up ay her...its unfair n i shld stop..yup..shall jus do my best...for now, gotta conc on my work...=)

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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

wow...been a long time since i blogged...have some things troubling me..(what's new?) sigh..today wasnt a very fantastic day...i wonder what the teachers want me to do...a sombre, serious me? or a happy me? im pretty confused...and i don't even know what's wrong exactly...ahhh nva had this prob lars...damn fucked up.
so shld i mould myself into this perfect student? maybe i shld really jus shut up during tutorials..then wow pple will start saying i dun respond during class..i hate this freaking bias which i feel is obvious...feelin very strained during class when now not only do i have to care abt paying attention n following the lesson, but also portraying the right image to the tcher..how fucked up is that.damn.

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Friday, March 04, 2005

wow...was jus listening to the song by colin raye...'love, me'...i think its really sweet n nice...sigh...the lyrics make me want to cry...i think it's so precious to have a love of a lifetime...like when u're old, u'll still have him by ur side...holding hands...knowing each other's thoughts...jus knowing that uve met ur soulmate..

LOVE, ME
I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me.
He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."
We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then,
till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I'd never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me.
I'll meet you when my chores are through;
I don't know how long I'll be.
But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I'll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then,
till I see you again,
I'll be loving you.
Love, me.

(i think the part in blue is the saddest part...)

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Tuesday, March 01, 2005

To a very gd fren:

stay strong. i wish i cld do more. i wish i cld be there with u now. pls pls take care of urself. i'll always be here with u. have faith in urself stay strong. i don't want to see u sad, but i'll be here to get thru this with u.. u prob won't even read this. i really hope to see u smile again. ilu

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